understood.

i want to be understood without always having to explain myself. i want someone to notice the small things the way my energy shifts, the quiet moments, the things i don’t say and still choose to understand me. it’s not that i don’t want to communicate, it’s just that sometimes i wish my silence spoke for me, that someone could look at me and just get it. i want a connection where i don’t have to break everything down into words to feel seen, where i can just exist and still be known.

and i think what makes it harder is that i take the time to understand other people in that way. i pay attention, i read between the lines, i notice when something’s off without being told. i give that kind of care naturally, but it feels like nobody has ever done the same for me. it leaves me wanting something i’m always giving, but rarely receiving. and i’m still figuring out how to be okay with asking for that, even when all i really want is for it to come without me having to say a word.